Buried Gifts

Fifty-seven years and I grieve Please turn back the clock Give me my reprieve By not listening you ruined my life And here I am at the end of days Sat on a rubbish heap for the lost In realisation that it is too late Gifts discarded to the four winds Potential held by regret … More Buried Gifts

Poised Dreams

Poised between life and death – too old to start again, not old enough for the pastures, I realise that I am close to the finish line with little evidence of my life or that I even existed. The sadness for me is overwhelming. What I craved and still do crave, was earning a living … More Poised Dreams

Ad Rant

Ads are destroying the look of my page Not just angry, I am in total rage My headers are ruined by intrusive words The sign off covered with advert turds WordPress I hate what you’ve done One day I’ll leave coz this is no longer fun Rude beyond comparison to litter my work If it … More Ad Rant

Dropped

Everyone leaves In the end I’ve watched you go Left behind in pieces Broken hearted And I will never know What drove you away When you told me Of my kindness Always here in times Of your greatest need But the moment Life picked you up You dropped me Like a stone Falling to the … More Dropped

Authentic Wheels

“There are risks associated with being authentic. I choose to be authentic anyway.” Resilient Chameleon Inspired by these words, I ponder on my Autistic authenticity because my learning zone hasn’t fully uncovered all that hides behind my mask. Many Autistics unknowingly mask before diagnosis, some mask knowingly for self-protection. Years ago, I trained as a … More Authentic Wheels

Limbo of Wires

Life after diagnosis is very strange. A limbo of self-discovery and learning, mainly from the wonderful Autistic community I found online and in local groups. Far better educators than anyone else I’ve met. My rollercoaster ride of highs and lows continues, mixing my ‘aha’ moments with many tears of grief and relief. I still feel … More Limbo of Wires

Buried Gifts

Oh, how time flies or as my Dad used to say, “Time doesn’t half tempus fugit.” I’ve been absent for a while dealing with ongoing health issues. However, I’m back with a sense of achievement. The Kent Autistic Trust held their AGM this week. I attend one of their support groups and we were asked … More Buried Gifts

All the Answers

With two diagnoses under my belt, a ton of research plus medical input, all the mysteries of my life have been solved. Yes! Solved! For years I was visiting the doctors, presenting with several issues over and over, asking them repeatedly for what I sensed had a definitive answer. Not one of those highly paid … More All the Answers